Tuesday, March 24, 2009

The Eraser, Pt. 2: Just Playing A Part

"Analyse"

A self-fulfilling prophecy of endless possibility
You roll in reams across the street
In algebra, in algebra

When we last left Tom, he had realized that something had gone horribly awry in his relationship. Now, he’s trying to understand what exactly it was that happened. He’s examining what he knows, searching for some way to make sense of all this hurt and pain. Tom wants his emotions to work like math, with clear solutions to problems. However, this is obviously not working.

The fences that you cannot climb
The sentences that do not rhyme
In all that you can ever change
The one you're looking for

Tom begins to list his problems, looking for patterns or connections. He sees boundaries and restrictions in his relationship, along with broken communication. He begins to yearn for someone, anyone, who won’t put him through these painful situations.

It gets you down
It gets you down
There's no spark
No light in the dark

Trying to make sense of all these problems is only making Tom more depressed. He hoped that laying everything out in front of him would show him the solution. Instead, all he sees are those same problems, staring back at him. The spark is gone from his relationship. Darkness is closing in.

It gets you down
It gets you down
You traveled far
What have you found

Tom realizes that all these years with his partner have ultimately left him with nothing. Their journey together has led to this point, where no one’s happy and things are falling down around them. It all just adds fuel to his depression.

That there's no time
There's no time
To analyse
To think things through
To make sense

No matter how much he’d like to rationalize things away, Tom can ignore his emotions no longer. His feelings are too strong, his anger too heated for calm and logical reasoning. Something must be done now.

Like cows in the city
They never looked so pretty
By power carts and blackouts
Sleeping like babies

Tom looks at his life and everything he and his partner have shared. Perhaps they have actual children, or maybe the “sleeping babies” are just the various items, furniture or experiences they’ve shared over the years.

It gets you down
It gets you down
You're just playing a part
You're just playing a part

No matter what Tom is looking at, he now sees everything as fake. This relationship has been an act, nothing more than an elaborate piece of theater. All these things surrounding him are just props in this sham.

You're playing a part, playing a part
And there's no time, there's no time
To analyse, analyse, analyse

This relationship has hit the point of no return. Now that Tom sees the partnership for what it really is, he can’t bring himself to think rationally. He gives himself over to more irrational thinking, knowing that the relationship will disintegrate very soon.


Time is running out
For us
But you just move the hands upon the clock

Tom knows it’s doomed, but his partner is still trying to pretend nothing is really wrong. In Tom's eyes, he or she is trying to turn back time to happier days. However, Tom sees the error in this. If this whole relationship has all been fake, a pretty piece of play acting, then there were no happier times.

You throw coins in the wishing well
For us
You just move your hands upon the wall

His partner keeps insisting that things will be ok. But Tom knows that no amount of empty wishing will solve their problems. The partner keeps insisting that there were better times in the past, but in Tom’s irrational rage, even the past begins to look bad.

It comes to you begging you to stop
Wake up
But you just move your hands upon the clock

The way Tom sees it, his partner is asleep. He or she keeps dreaming this idyllic fantasy, the fairy tale that Tom is trying to shoot down. His partner needs to be woken up so they can face the cruel reality of the situation.

Throw coins in the wishing well
For us
You make believe that you are still in charge

There’s no going back from here. The relationship cannot be recovered. Tom is so sure of this that nothing his partner says will change his mind. His partner cannot control him any longer.

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