Friday, March 27, 2009

The Eraser, Pt. 5: Don't Turn Away


Don't walk the plank like I did
You will be dispensed with
When you've become inconvenient

Tom, in his sadness and pain, begins reflecting on the long path that brought him to this point. He realizes the futility of his relationship, thinking that it was just a matter of time before he’d end up where he is now.

Up on Harrowdown hill
Near where you used to go to school
That's where I am
That's where I'm lying down

As he wanders though the city, he finds a place of special importance to him and his partner. I’d like to think it was the first place they met, but that seems a bit overly romantic. Either way, this spot reminds Tom of his partner.

Did I fall or was I pushed?
Did I fall or was I pushed?
And where's the blood?
And where's the blood?

Tom wonders how this relationship started. Did he fall in love, head-over-heels and all that? Or was he pushed into this relationship by other forces? Either way, Tom feels the relationship started violently and it’s only fitting that it would end in a way that was incredibly painful for him.

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
To make it all right
So dry your eyes

Being back here at Harrowdown hill, where it all started, is like going home to Tom. But he knows he can’t actually “make it all right.” He tries to deny his situation, wishing he could still do something to fix his old relationship. Sadly, he knows he can’t. He keeps crying.

We think the same things at the same time
We just can’t do anything about it
We think the same things at the same time
We just can’t do anything about it

Looking back, Tom sees all the great times in his relationship. These were those good ol’ days his partner urged him to see. The days where they were smiling and happy, finishing each other’s sentences. In many ways, Tom and his partner actually were well-matched with each other. But it’s too late for any of that to matter now.

So don't ask me
Ask the ministry
Don't ask me
Ask the ministry

Tom concedes defeat. How can he make sense of any of these problems? Perhaps the answers lie with some higher power, so go ask a priest. Another reading of “ministry” could imply marriage. Tom could be sarcastically saying, “Why did we get married? Go ask the minister.”

We think the same things at the same time
There are so many of us
So you can't count
We think the same things at the same time
There are too many of us
So you can't count

Tom isn’t alone in his loneliness. We live in an age where divorce is becoming more and more common. In the US, over 40% of couples get divorced within fifteen years. Clearly, Tom isn’t the only one struggling with the mystery of relationships.

Can you see me when I'm running?
Can you see me when I'm running?
Away from them, away from them

Tom didn’t want to be one of those people, though. He wanted to make things work. He wanted to be the shining example of how two people can really make a relationship succeed.

I can't take the pressure
No one cares if you live or die
They just want me gone
They want me gone

But things didn’t work out that way. The relationship was too much for him to handle. He couldn’t cope with feeling unloved like that. And now, his partner just wants him gone. Tom’s relationship has officially failed.

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
To make it all right
So dry your eyes

Tom can only deny things so much longer. Sooner or later, he’ll have to accept that there is no going back. Things will not be “all right” any time soon.

We think the same things at the same time
We just can’t do anything about it
We think the same things at the same time
There are too many of us
So you can't
There are too many of us so you can’t count

Tom has become another relationship casualty, the product of two humans who misjudged their compatibility. Sure, they had many things in common, but did they really have the skills and mentality to be able to make it in the long run? It appears they didn’t.

It was a slippery slippery slippery slope
It was a slippery slippery slippery slope
I feel me slipping in and out of consciousness
I feel me slipping in and out of consciousness

Alone on Harrowdown hill, Tom sees how tiny problems snowballed into huge problems over the years. In relationships, nothing is too small to be ignored. Those tiny issues will grow until the entire relationship is crushed by them. In the face of all this, Tom can only curl up and go to sleep, hoping that tomorrow will somehow be better for him.


Try to save it but it doesn't come off the rock
Try to build a wall that is high enough

This song functions as the moral of Tom’s story. No matter how many defenses you try to put in place, relationships are complicated things. Once problems start, it’s very difficult to hold back the flood of emotions.

It's all boiling over
All boiling over

For Tom, it was too much. The lying, cheating and manipulation in his relationship reached a point where it overran him and his partner, destroying any love either of them had for each other.

Try to save your house
Try to save your songs
Try to run
But it follows you up a hill

As Tom experienced, running from your problems doesn’t help either. Relationship problems won’t go away until they are resolved, somehow, once and for all.

It's all boiling over
All boiling over
Your little voice
Your little voice

That little voice in your mind, the one that tells you when things are irritating you, cannot be ignored. If you leave it alone too long, the emotions will eventually boil over.

No more conversation
No more conversation
You should’ve took me out when you had a chance
You should’ve took me out when you had a chance

Tom’s relationship got to that point where talking about problems simply isn’t enough. People have to change their actions as well. Words aren’t enough.

All the rooms were numbered
And the losers turned away
Don't turn away
Don't turn away

Above all, pay attention. Don’t ignore the problems you have, just because they seem difficult to deal with. The only way you can solve them is to confront them. Like the man on the album’s cover, you have to stand facing the emotional flood, warding it off and standing strong even as it threatens to overwhelm you.

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